For nearly a year my lower back pain has been the focus of my struggles – insights, more struggles, more insights, more struggles.
In August I wrote a blog about how poor health can affect your relationships – then another one in March about what it really means to walk tall when I shared my latest effort to do something not just about my lower back pain which had got worse but also about my back becoming more bent.
When I wrote the one in March, I had only just started seeing Bernie, my Alexander Technique practitioner. For those of you who live in Surrey, Bernadete Gage is absolutely amazing.
I vividly remember my first session. “How long will it take before I can walk straight again?”, I demanded. “And how long for the pain to go?”. Bernie has heard it all before so she was very gentle with me and proceeded to clear up some of my unrealistic expectations.
I’ve now had 10 sessions with her and, at our last session, she told me I didn’t need to see her weekly anymore – I can now space out our sessions to once every three weeks. How awesome is that!
As for the miracle I referred to in my headline, I only noticed it a week ago.
Paul and I went with a friend to the Hannah Pesher sculpture gardens near Dorking which, by the way, is an absolute ‘must see’.
I walked along with them for about an hour with only a few stops to catch my breath. Absolutely unheard of!
By the time we got back, instead of feeling in pain and wiped out as I had in the past, I just felt pleasantly tired. Next day I still felt pretty good – no pain.
I then started to notice that I’m actually erect – I’m no longer bent! And, what’s more, it’s not a fluke!
Miracles do happen!
I’m sharing this with you for two reasons:
- I thought you might like to know how I’m progressing
- But this is the real reason I’m sharing my story with you:
I’ve been in pain since my early twenties. Between then and my fifties, the pain was infrequent. Then, as I entered my sixties I noticed that the pain had become constant – sometimes manageable, more and more often, grim.
I tried physio, acupuncture, pilates, every type of painkiller on the market that my GP prescribed, chiropractor and even a TENS machine. Nothing worked.
I was then referred to my local pain clinic. They prescribed an intervention that involved 10 injections where they injected steroid.
I’d had steroids a few years ago when I had a frozen shoulder and it worked instantly and permanently so my expectations were high.
I can’t begin to tell you how disappointed I felt when the injections didn’t work either. I thought it was the end of the road and I would have to live with the pain forever.
And I might have tried to come to terms with it if it hadn’t been that I was becoming more and more bent. I began to hate my body, resent it. I was so angry.
That’s when Paul, my partner, suggested I might like to try the Alexander Technique.
And here I am – at 72, walking proudly and with little or no pain. Had you told me I would be here only 4 months ago I would never have believed you.
This is what I learned:
Never, never, never – EVER – give up!
With love and gratitude,
P.S. I enable women build strong and loving relationships, first with themselves and then with others. That’s because your relationship with yourself shapes all your other relationships.
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